hailsatin, fuckers - even in death.

Notes: 5 / 1 week ago

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this is the last picture i will be posting - i’m pretty sure it’s the last one i have. it’s been 6 months since Stephen passed away. this has been a very hard time for me and contrary to what is said - it doesn’t really get easier with time. people who say that have never lost some one they truly loved, i suppose. it doesn’t get easier - you just learn to side step the giant aching hole their absence leaves in your life. granted, in time you do learn to live with the pain but it doesn’t get easier or hurt less. it’s just becomes familiar. i realize more and more all the time just how lucky i was to meet Stephen. when this first happened i couldn’t believe that my friend and companion had been jerked from me so early in our friendship. i’ve had time to reflect these past months and more than bitterness and anger, i just feel goddamned lucky that i had a chance to know him at all, even if it was only a short time. i have never and, i’m sure, will never meet another human being at all like him. i know that it is common practice to put a person who passed away on a pedestal, but that is not the case here. Stephen really was a fucking amazing man. if you knew him at all, you know what i mean. i still cry for my friend everyday. i miss him more than anyone could ever know and my memories of my time spent with him are my most precious possessions. Stephen taught me what it felt like to be alive and i will forever be grateful to him and for the lessons he taught me. even though i know all of you miss him as much as i do, i hope that instead of sadness his memory brings you happiness as well. much love. ♥

this is the last picture i will be posting - i’m pretty sure it’s the last one i have. it’s been 6 months since Stephen passed away. this has been a very hard time for me and contrary to what is said - it doesn’t really get easier with time. people who say that have never lost some one they truly loved, i suppose. it doesn’t get easier - you just learn to side step the giant aching hole their absence leaves in your life. granted, in time you do learn to live with the pain but it doesn’t get easier or hurt less. it’s just becomes familiar. i realize more and more all the time just how lucky i was to meet Stephen. when this first happened i couldn’t believe that my friend and companion had been jerked from me so early in our friendship. i’ve had time to reflect these past months and more than bitterness and anger, i just feel goddamned lucky that i had a chance to know him at all, even if it was only a short time. i have never and, i’m sure, will never meet another human being at all like him. i know that it is common practice to put a person who passed away on a pedestal, but that is not the case here. Stephen really was a fucking amazing man. if you knew him at all, you know what i mean. i still cry for my friend everyday. i miss him more than anyone could ever know and my memories of my time spent with him are my most precious possessions. Stephen taught me what it felt like to be alive and i will forever be grateful to him and for the lessons he taught me. even though i know all of you miss him as much as i do, i hope that instead of sadness his memory brings you happiness as well. much love. ♥

Notes: 5 / 1 month ago

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2 months ago

The world is not nearly as much fun without you in it.

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Notes: 3 / 3 months ago

“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”

~Edna St Vincent Millay

Notes: 6 / 4 months ago

You are missed more every day.

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Notes: 7 / 4 months ago

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Notes: 2 / 4 months ago

secretsecretary asked: I think about you all the time.

Notes: 7 / 4 months ago

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Notes: 4 / 4 months ago

Anonymous asked: what was hailsatin like in person? i've always wondered what he was like outside of tumblr. i didn't talk to him on here but his blog was my favorite and i always had a crush on him. though i think everyone who followed him had a crush on him, guys included. i hope this is okay to ask - i'm just curious. i miss his blog big time. its not the same around here.

He was everything you could imagine and more. He seriously was the most amazing human being I’ve ever met and the best friend I’ve ever had. He was incredibly hilarious. As kindhearted and selfless as a person could be - there were no lengths he wouldn’t go to for the people he loved. He was a ton of fun to hang out with - I didn’t see him in person as much as I’d have liked to, but the times that we did hang out were the best days I’ve ever had. He was silly and dorky and goofy and a hardcore bad ass all at the same time. I’ve never met anyone like Stephen, and I doubt I will again. He truly was a one of a kind creation. Hope that helps in some way. I wasn’t ignoring this ask, just waiting for a time when I felt it was right to answer it.

Notes: 12 / 5 months ago

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